Farewell Letter to G, for now.....

I ventured to the supermarket the other day to see you and your family standing there, you looked amazing. I spent the last year and half scared to death that you were not safe, protected and loved. I also spent that time missing you tremendously, that great smile and your unmistakable call for “Daddy” will always resonate in my head. I didn’t want to say anything cause I didn’t want to confuse you or create anymore turmoil in your life, you have gone through so much already, so I just walked on by, wowed that I finally got a chance to see you again. I hope you didn’t see me I wouldn’t want you to think I forgot about you, far from it. I’d rather you live your life and be happy. But I was glad I got to see you healthy, and well kept. It gave me some clarity of your future and even know I
will still worry daily, at least I know you are likely on a good path.

I want to thank you for being a part of our lives and creating so much love in our home. You brought a lot of joy to our family and I hope the time you spent with us brought that same amount of joy. You helped me through some trying times, and helped me grow as person and most of all as a parent. More than you will even know. I hope the skills and goals we instilled in you while you stayed with us, bring you much joy and happiness. I hope to, someday in the distance, see you again. See how you have developed into a successful young lady. And watch you walk with confidence, strength, and beauty into your future. I wish you everything the world has to offer and hope you receive it. I will always miss you, and of course I love you very much. Best of luck my little girl.

Love

“Daddy”

Time 'tick' 'tick'

TIME SCAPE

Time is an interesting element in our lives as human beings. It can be used as a punishment (prison), used as a pleasure (vacation), used as a measure (work week), or even used as a threat (you have 6 months to live). Whatever it is used for, it will never stop, and never reset. Its unforgiving in that way. There is no pause, rewind, and fast forward. There is just time with no concluded end

When young time seems endless; open to new possibilities and hopes. The sun seems to never set and new horizons seem to grow almost in an instant. There is no value put on time at this age because it seems so endless. When age starts to show its ugly head, time seems to go by faster leaving you wanting more but not able to accomplish it within the quicksand’s of the hourglass. No matter how hard you try things begin to slip out of your grasp, you fall behind, your list become smaller because the longer lists from before are no longer attainable. The older we get the even more quick time seems to pass by. Instead of hours missed it becomes days, weeks, months and even years. We forget and the pass erases all existence of the events. Maybe this is why legacy is so important to most people. Why having a clean image is more important than being honest and true, no matter how horrible the truth. Why are our lives set up with such a parameter. Is it so we value time and thus live, if so than why do we as humans not see the value of time till in most cases it’s passed us by. Is this the cruel reality of time’s plan to make us aware late in life of our wastefulness of it.

I’d like to think that time somehow continues after death. But being realistic there is probably a slim chance of this. I like to think I’m going to be more then fertilizer in my absence but until that day comes I will never know, and of course I’m not too much a gambler with common ideas that are supported by no evidence. So in retrospect I will wait to explore that avenue and see what it brings. For now I chase time, trying to catch as much of it as possible and harvest as much of it as I can. Spend as much of it with family and friends, and as little of it with doubt and depression. It’s way too short to waste on simple thing like that and I’m way to busy looking at the better things in life.

Think Pozitive ….. 5

WAR DESIGN

WAR DESIGN  2009

Warhol’s film “Blow Job” spoke of a principle of early Soviet film theory, the “Kuleshov effect,” in which shots taken on different meaning depending on their juxtaposition with other images. Does this concept along with extra images form an alternative meaning? Does the use of the term “The End” or the image of an abstract tank form a military or war like design?

 

Though this piece would be apropo to what is going on in the Soviet Union right now.....cheers.....