MILESTONES

ISLA BARNES BORN MARCH 4TH 2013

For years I have felt trapped in quicksand, not able to get out and move up to the next milestone. Left stagnate, waiting for that child to begin our family, that forever child. Now that veil has been lifted, new life can begin, wasted years are behind us. She came to us and now she is finally a permanent part of our family.  The quicksand feels like it is loosening and the fear and stress of the responsibility ahead engulf my eagerness. The fog has clears the stairs are visible and I am climbing. It’s a bit overwhelming thinking about the responsibility ahead but I am defiantly up for the challenge. I can’t wait to see what tomorrow bring and look very forward to the milestones.

ISLA IN HARD TIMES

Milestone seem important in life. They direct as well as set the footing for our next step. I never really paid too much attention to milestones in the past thinking they were just trees passing by in my travels. A nice thought but they are more than this, they are foundations being forged. They are the rise of your steps to your next point. Lack of concern for them creates a loss of drive and a decrease in forward momentum. We need milestones to show us we are heading I the right direction. Without them we are flying blind. By doing this we take the chance of going in the wrong direction or even worse sometimes going in no direction at all. Milestone also build your respect and enforce your relationships with family and friends. The more milestone you share with family and friends the closer bond is developed.  Graduation, They are a scrapbook of our lives allowing us to look back and see where we succeeded and where we failed, but most of all where we are heading and how we can get there quicker. Marriage, Children, Car accident, Promotion, New home, Prison, 25th anniversary, etc etc etc. No matter how small the milestone. How positive or how negative, all of them hold a place in our hearts that will drive us, even negative milestone can drive us forward if they are looked at correctly and seen for what they are. If not, they can limit us and stall us from achieving the next milestone. They can stall us for minutes or they can stall us for decades.

 I sit wondering what the future will bring, what is out there for us and where we will be in 10 years. I make suggestions and comments to myself hoping the energy will maintain the excitement. She is ours and we are her netting. Her only defense against this world in which we live. The only protection from that which is dark and unmanageable. Do I put blinders on her and school her like a horse for success, or water her like a flower and let her grow in her own unique chemistry. So many questions and no answers. Lots of options but no facts. It’s a scary road to not know where the next pothole is, but we will strive through it. Build this house solid and large. Filled with love and charity. We will develop ourselves to be that family with communication and understand. One that helps you through in times of need and gives space when you need it. I hope I can show you everything you desire to see and I hope I can teach you everything you desire to learn. I see that energy within you. That enormous, powerful, power which you convey. How luck the world will be to experience even a faction of what you are capable of, and can you imagine what you will be capable of in the future.